tz..

sooooo pissed off with my camera.. lost quite alot of my pictures taken outside. sad.. i didn't go to school today. i felt so peaceful. like i can relax from everything! i cannot wait for exams to end and holidays to start. i want my freedom back. i hate school> remedial> tuition> sleep. argh!

ok just a serious interpersonal difficulty i'm facing right now!! i shall COMPLAIN!!

oh well 90 more days.. just 90 more days to end this misery! i don't want to get bad grades.. i hope i can tolerate and just strive on. it's something i always struggle and reckon with. for now, i only rest on weekends and fri nights. the rest of the days are deadly. but at the end of the day, everything boils down to your own individual effort. i believe i cannot be dependent on tuitions... sigh.. i've already used up a great deal of time, energy, money, training and studying towards a course i'm aspire to. and i hope i can do it. 9pts.. can make it? or cannot? i dont know.. :( nowadays totally lost motivation, had been skipping school.. my attendance is horrible now i should say..and instead, i went out to play and shop.. i feel that this leisure lifestyle solely becomes the focus of everything, and eventually i became the last to recognise this untill someone gave me a serious wake up call! schoolwork are just piling up like nobody's business!! and we've gotta finish it on time before everything becomes a havoc and troubles start coming in. this makes it even more difficult to distinguish studying time and private time.. argh..i need to to learn how to create more balance in my life man..