Imma sad girl

Been feeling very depressed lately. just depressed.

I have so much stuffs going on in my life right now. Especially with school. Tons of school assignments!! And exams are just around the corner. That makes me more depressed as i felt that i do not know all my stuffs, yet. Everyday i got out of class with a new assignment/homework. Just another burden on your shoulders. Everyday i tried my best to complete my assignments, and when i'm done, there's new assignments in the way. And when i got all so busy with my assignments, i spend less time studying, and when i spend less time studying, there goes my exam grades. to the drain.

And when i got all so depressed, small little things just sets me off easily. For example, i was doing research on my laptop and i was so INTO it and i didn't notice that my laptop was running out of batt and the screen went black out of a sudden, and i lost my document on Microsoft words, and i get pissed. And one freaking thing about me is i'm a blur queen and i'm ALWAYS careless. The homework clearly states "do question 2", and i looked at it wrongly and i did question 3 the whole freaking time, and when i know i have to redo everything again, i get pissed. And everytime i study, there would ALWAYS be mosquitoes and flies all around me. And when i got small itchy red bumps all over my legs i get pissed. Flies landing on my food or cup i get pissed. Laptop ran out of batt i get pissed. My itouch is being a bitch lately it just keeps hanging and my home button wouldn't work most of the time and i have to keep pressing it continuously, i get pissed. And when the weather is hot and i sweat alot i get pissed. And when i'm driving fast because i was late for school, my dad keeps nagging and i get pissed. And when i get new and difficult assignments i get pissed. And when i'm studying, my bro plays the drums and my dad vacuums the carpet/ chop the frozen chicken on the chopping board i get pissed.  In addition, my dad kept telling me to do this and that. Of couse, i would try to help whenever i can and within my ability. My bro is also applying for school in ASU and i've to help him with the transfer admission and stuffs like that too. And when i'm busy i told my dad "ok do tomorrow" and he said i'm not helpful. Cos one thing about my dad he's always rushing things and wanna accomplish everything quickly. Like for example, my dad poured a cup of orange juice for me and himself. I drank it slowly, but he drank one whole shot down his throat. I asked him why is he doing this and he replied " faster drink, faster wash the cup". Seriously, his life is all about rushing things. Sometimes we have to learn to slow things down a little bit.